Steve Winklemann asked me if I ever had an eating disorder in a staff meeting then mocked me front of everyone saying I had a fake eating disorder for attention started making puking noises and got in my face making loud noises any time I tried to talk until I walked out crying and hid in the bathroom.

I witnessed staff force a vegetarian to eat a hamburger before she could be discharged from outpatient. She was told they would not let her out of outpatient treatment unless she ate meat and then forced her to do so publicly. Staff and group members cheered and shouted while the teenage girl was forced to eat meat despite being a long time vegetarian.

I struggled with bulimia prior and during my time in the group. I had to sit with someone after eating for 30 minutes, then encouraged to smoke and drink coffee to help me not make myself sick.

I believe I was suffering from stress induced anorexia during my time in the group. My mental health was declining rapidly and I essentially stopped eating. My Staff sponsor assigned a boy in the group to take me to Wendy’s every day and watch me eat a cheeseburger.

My experience was more turned around. I was too thin, watching what I ate was obsessive thinking, eating salads was being “spiritually sick” wanting to be skinny was a spiritual sickness, all S2 food was so terrible for you, all processed disgusting foods. I was told I was over reacting because they got a bag of lettuce.

I have had Beth Adams and Nick Crevar both tell me I can’t have an eating disorder because I’m already skinny naturally. Basically ED doesn’t exist when you’re already skinny. Nick has told me that me claiming to have had struggles with eating is attention seeking.

My OP counselor fat shamed people constantly. He would say that people were overweight because they hated themselves. Also, one girl who struggled with bulimia, anytime she mentioned it was accused of attention-seeking. Staff would mock her and say things like "Are you not feeling loved enough? do we need to pay you more attention?" and then laugh.

I have too much to write out about the eating disorder stuff. They were terrible. The counselors would follow me around like wolves and force me to eat what they put out, and sit there and watch me. They were untrained and so ignorant about everything. I struggled badly in the group with no control, and that’s when my eating disorder is the worst. They just followed and watched and forced me to eat in front of them and text them updates on every single thing I ate throughout the day. If I didn’t my sponsor would tell me I was working towards a relapse and not connected with god, and then they “informed” the rest of the girls that I was in that state so THEY could also watch and monitor me.

There was one girl who had been there long before me and she was the only one I ever heard the staff talk that way about, but they all talked about her spiritual condition being weak and how if "she can't not eat a cookie, how's she ever not gonna use drugs." That last phrase was like their tag line for her or something. It was fucking disgusting, she was one of the nicest kids I met there.

I’m a small person and almost everybody would call out how skinny I was and when people would get food they would bring too much uncomfortable attention to me getting food for myself.

The Phoenix staff discouraged exercise, claiming that it was vain and an attempt to gain more sexual partners. In counselor training, Clint Stonebraker went on a rant about how men are becoming woman-like by trying to make themselves beautiful. He said that being muscular and/or having a shaved chest was unmanly.

Women were supposed to be soft but not too big, and to make ourselves attractive to men but not too attractive. We were urged to not show too much skin, but also don’t be too masculine. And that they tried to help people manage serious eating disorders is so dangerous.